“I do not know the meaning of all things.”
I am meant to write a poll today; an interesting question that will gauge the opinions and feelings of Exponent II readers today. But what question can I pose of the many questions being asked today? What feeling can I draw forth of the many emotions that are flooding our Mormon world today?
Kate Kelly’s disciplinary council will be held tonight and it impacts us all. Whatever you think and feel about Ordain Women or church leadership or revelation from heaven or the disciplinary process – this impacts us all.
As I think and feel today, I sing songs to myself as a way to bring order and calm.
“He gave me my eyes that I might see …..”
I see my brothers and sisters. I see hate and love. I see miracles and troubles.
“He gave me my ears that I might hear …”
I hear comfort and division. I hear scripture and the temple endowment. I hear hymns.
“He gave me my life, my mind, my heart …”
I think of Jesus and Joseph and Thomas. I think of patterns. I puzzle over the lines these patterns create: parallel lines, perpendicular lines.
I feel the Holy Ghost. I feel the love of friends and family. I feel pain around me. I feel compassion.
Today, I will not understand. I will not be able to connect the dots and make a straight line. All I know to do today is feel.
“For all his creations, of which I’m a part. Yes, I know Heav’nly Father loves me.”
And from Nephi, a prophet:
“I know that he loveth his children; nevertheless, I do not know the meaning of all things.” 1 Nephi 11:17
What are you thinking and feeling today?