by Taylor Rosecrans
Acts 17 “That they should seek the Lord, if haply they might feel after him, and find him, though he be not far from every one of us: For in him we live, and move, and have our being.”
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I came looking for God in the pews.
Listening to authorities, their words circled around me, taking my breath as they came tighter and tighter.
I escaped and cried, God, is that you?
I found Him in the community of women who shared my hurt.
I went looking for God in the Holy Place.
My mind and my heart were lost, looking for the feminine, looking for myself.
I went home.
I found Her on my knees.
I looked for God in the symbols meant to comfort and protect.
They felt shallow. They felt restrictive.
Was God there?
I found Them in my heart.
I listened for God in words of a leader.
Anger grew in my throat.
I found God in my tears.
I searched for God in words I was told were His.
They danced above my head.
I reached, but they wouldn’t stick.
I found God’s Son in a new translation.
I went to find God in a mortal.
The words I looked for in his lips didn’t come.
My daughter cried out. I pulled her in.
I looked down and I found God in her smile.
I know where to find God now.
She is in my hands when I love.
He is in my soul when I pray.
I found God in a breath, in a step, in a thought.
I found God
in myself.
He is. They are.
I AM.
Taylor Rosecrans: A Non-traditional Mormon Woman. A Doctoral Student in Business. A Midwestern Mother of One.
So beautifully said. This resonates in me. Thank you.
beautiful <3
Beautiful poem!!!