The 'Before' Life
I admit it. I’m walking around in my ‘BEFORE’ life right now.
My kids run and play (or hit each other in the face with a bat, whichever). I go out to dinner and a movie with my husband. We have food on the table, a roof over our heads, a big network of family and friends that love us.
We even have Rock Band (best. game. ever. Just ask EmilyCC, she’s amazing on the guitar)
Yeah, we’re coasting, doing fine.
Recently, my list of people to pray for has grown longer and longer. So many people are having life-altering trials. I’m trying to understand what’s going on around me and frame these struggles in a way that makes sense to me and prepares me for similar catastrophes in my own life. I know we’re currently living the ‘Before’ life.
Before a child dies.
Before a terrible accident.
Before a parent dies.
Before discovering a pornography addiction.
Before you have to bury your baby.
Before a spouse dies or is disabled.
All of these people are living in the ‘after’ part of their lives. Some of them are friends that I know and love. Their ‘befores’ didn’t look much different than mine. So many of life’s challenges blindside us and we can only look back at the ‘before’ days like they were a dream. Although we don’t all go through the same trials, most of us can relate to the ‘before’ and ‘after’ days.
My only bit of hope is that there are so many people I know who are here, who are walking around ‘after.’ They say that it’s hard, that it’s not by choice, that they’d lie in bed all day if they could. But, they still do, they get up and live.