Where is God?
CW: rape, stillbirth
1. A woman is promised a long life in her patriarchal blessing. She dies young from an incurable disease.
2. A woman feels that she heard the voice of God telling her to go on a mission, and subsequent promptings in prayer and in the temple confirm this decision. On the first day in her mission, she is violently raped by an intruder and immediately returns home.
3. A woman is told in a dream or vision that she will have a daughter whose name is revealed to her, and that this daughter will go on to do great things. She discovers she’s unexpectedly pregnant, but later delivers a stillborn daughter.
Where is God in this? Why would God direct people in these ways when these are the events that follow?
Where is God when prayers go unanswered, and pleadings unheard?
Where is God when blessings go unfulfilled and promises are un-kept?
Where is God when we do what is right, and the consequences that follow are cruel and degrading rather than affirming and uplifting?
Where is God when we walk, sure of our Divine companionship, and yet we’re left alone?
Where is God when we walk, sure of being abandoned, yet we suddenly feel that we’re being guided?
Where is God when children die, and when children are born?
Where is God when the arms of Heaven stretch down to reach us, blessing and comforting us in times of distress?
Where is God when we sing and dance, full of love and joy?
Where is God when the beauty is so astounding that words can’t describe it, and our emotions are overwhelmed by the grandeur?
I believe that God is always there, amid all of these things and in all of life’s contradictions.
But how (or why) God is always there, I don’t understand.